eventful day today!

woke up On time for the english course today, but decided i was too sleepy. so went back to bed. den Shi messaged me and woke me up from my sleep! so off to school i went, 1hr late. it was..okay lar. marife cruz yap's experiences are all so hilarious! last part of the course today, not gonna see her anymore! haha. not as if am gonna miss her or smth.

met - at kap. to talk about things..clarify misunderstandings. i thought i'd find a clear answer to all the doubts i had. but no, it became messier, more complicated. i really dont know what to think. dont ask me who i believe, who i trust. cus seriously, i have no fucking idea. everyone says different things and all. i know i'm being a lousy friend. Yes, friends are supposed to trust each other, to support each other. but now, i cant make up my mind. give me some time. i dont want to wrong anyone, i dont want to make the mistake of ignoring someone, only to find out that she was the one i shld trust in the first place. no matter what others might say about past experiences. i believe everyone should be given a chance to redeem themselves. past experiences might matter but what if the person has turned over a new leaf? shouldnt we continue trusting that person, and not condem her for what she had done in the past? shouldnt we be more accepting and understanding? how i wished i didnt know about some things to begin with. then i wldnt be traumatised, then bombarded with this thing.

and how i wish i didnt meet you in the first place. only to find out that you're just someone who's fickleminded in the heart; everchanging. i'm so glad i didnt put much try into this.

home, tuition.

met shihui and shuwei! we were so undecisive! couldnt even find a place to have dinner at. in the end, ate at delifrance but they bought macs over. haha. walked around a bit after that..from cine to taka, to wisma. made a fool of myself at taka! i thought shuwei was beside me den i said " i need to be more girly!" den turned to my right. to my horror, it was some middleaged woman also wearing darkblue top la! grr. den she laughed at me! :( and They couldnt stop laughing. hmph. afterthat looked at clothes.. bought clothes. Yay (: bet the clothes we were looking at didnt appeal to Shi AT ALL. haha. den we(shuwei and i) tried to act bimbo. the most shi wld be wld be bungho?! haha. damn funny la. like totally. heh. sent shuwei off. that rich qian jing xiao jie. got this new phone which came out for..$1000?! donate to the "Peace for Iran" thingy la! so like, shi was leaning by the taxistand seat waiting for her to get onto the cab. so we waved bye to her..shi wanted to sit on the seat. But she almost Sat on this guy's back?! comical sight la!

supposedly wanted to meet Huiching at delta. in the end we went Crescent! sneaked in, without getting tickets. heh. caught the last few parts of the Crezawards. not bad la, but i think last year's was Definately better! more dance and there's Shenthy! -beams- her dancing is damn pro k! she was at zouk and was 2nd for the Christina Aguliera thingy. so anyway, there was no shenthy today! sat with nic, yuani, shi, suhanthi and huimin. we were noisy! plus the people in the front and back of us. Haha. after that towning a while. it was Primary 1I gathering! haha. me, shihui and huiching. See what 1I has made us to be la! -shakes head- haha. talked..catched up on things. miss my primary one friends! heh. huiching's mum sent us home. reached home at twelve..the previous night 11.30.

It's time to study!
forming studygroup. -beams-
i just love peihwa people la. (:

this love has taken its toll on me.